Originally posted by Qudron you say it like it's no big deal you were about to jump out from the roof

yes, several times. it was a very dark time in my life.

but i opened up, got help and my life is beautiful now. i'm forever grateful that I never did kill myself because I wouldn't get to see the beautiful things, the person i've become, my brother growing up. when people say it get's better, it truly does.

please try to get help and work out your issues. your life is worth so much and i know you may not see it now, but it's true. you 'chickening out' is actually a great sign because your brain and your body still want you to live. don't throw yourself away like that, sis. if you need to talk, you can always PM me

Originally posted by Qudron you say it like it's no big deal you were about to jump out from the roof

Originally posted by Pop Nano do you need help?

Originally posted by Nano lol i'm trying not to make it a big deal a functioning brain would help seriously tho i'll probably talk to my therapist about feeling bad lately but without talking about the suicide stuff cuz i don't wanna get hospitalized or something

I used to get bullied a lot in high school, in the locker room it would be worse with things I shall not mention but living in Houston most teachers didn't really care if someone made fun of a "***" I hadn't came out to anyone and it kept getting worse one day I came home and no one was home my day had been horrible I had been embarrassed infront of everyone in the locker room so I grabbed a knife and I put on the radio I was just sitting in bed crying with my door closed and I decided that I was gonna put the knife right through my heart so there was no way to save me and just when I was about to do it I kinda payed attention to the music and it was born this way playing it was the part where gaga says "I'm beautiful in my way cause god makes no mistakes" and if it wasn't for that song I wouldn't be here nor would I care for Gaga. I put the knife down took a nap and then went to best buy and bought the single cd. I would listen to it on my way to and from school.