I imagine falling in love with a straight guy is difficult, but I'd say it's 10 times harder falling in love with a gay guy who is still in denial about his sexuality. Why? Because before you know he's in denial your mind runs wild with all the possibilities that are seemingly feasible (considering he IS gay).
I fell hard for an employee at my local gym, but not only because he was HOT, but because there was mutual eye contact between us that went on for months. Even though I
knew he was gay, I didn't feel comfortable making a move on anything less than tangible evidence lol. THEN, he messaged me on grindr saying "you work out at -insert gym- right?".
Got the message a few days later than he sent it, replied, but he had deleted his profile. It was odd already because he had never been on before then. Anyways, a couple friends finally convinced me to approach him, which I did, (outside so his co-workers wouldn't see). And then it all fell apart. He was clearly uncomfortable, in denial, and fed me bull-****, saying "someone stole the pic from my instagram". I guess he expected me to believe him despite the eye-contact
before, as well as the specificity of the message.
And his story might have been believable, but when I mentioned grindr (which he pretended to be unaware of lol), he correctly guessed, on the first try, that it was a hook-up site
... Anyway, the situation KILLED me, I was legit in LOVE with him from a distance lol.
Thank god for good friends though, I drowned my sorrows in the club for like the next 3 nights. I'm officially over him but I'm optimistic that he will come to terms with himself and maybe then we can graduate from the eye-fu*king.