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Originally posted by Dancehall Queen
Depressed. Like I've been for the last few years. Usually, I just have a giant emotional breakdown a week, right now I'm just living in that state.
I'm just a huge weird looser. I have yet to make a outside of school friend in high school, there's people I talk to about everything throughout the day, but idk. But eh I'm just socially retarded and odd and as a result stick to the remainder of my middle school circle, of which there's two girls and me. They're good friends, but not a high school experience. I haven't even gone to a party yet. 
Everywhere people just talk and look at me like I'm a freak. And tell me. Literally people tell me whatever they think about me (I have people tell me like twice a week that being around me makes me want to kill themselves.)
I'm not even smart to compromise for no life. Well I gave up on school a while ago, just whatever, I can't care anymore. I think I'm smart though, everyone tells me I am but just that I'm lazy.
And ugh just not even organizing this in a way thats coherent. Lonely as hell, want a relationship, but I still am having middle school type obsessive crushes (like two weeks ago a guy told the guy I like that i probably like him since he notices me looking at him a lot.) I don't even talk to guys...
Ugh /end pointless ramble that fails to touch upon most of my actual problems randomly |
You do a wonderful job masking it on ATRL, 'cuz I'd never expect this from you. Such a shame what you're going through, but hey, everything will look up from here. I know it's corny - but if you focus on the positives as opposed as the negatives it makes everything better.
You seem like a great person on ATRL (your shade is marvelous, boo
) so I can assure you you're not the problem
at all! Hopefully you can branch out from the hell that is high school and everything works out.
#badatadvice2011
