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Originally posted by Ryan Bálor
Really sorry this happened to you, Buddy. Being ghosted is probably worst than someone telling you to your face it's over. With ghosting, it's mentally and emotionally abusive -- you doubt yourself, wondering if it's something you did, could have done differently; wonder if something bad happened; hold out hope that things will be different and return to normal. No one should have to deal with that.
I shared with someone one of my fears about my relationship last night. And got some really, really good advice in return. But the fear is constantly there in a way. I'm glad you were able to learn from your situation.
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It seriously is mentally and emotionally abusive and I don't think he is mature enough to understand the extent. Every single day and night was flooded with those thoughts of doubt and wonder, replaying the entire relationship. I couldn't sleep at all. Then on my 21st birthday I began to use alcohol to numb the pain and it led to a terribly unhealthy month where I even feared for my life. I was drunk off my ass almost every other night, and since the alcohol would give me panic attacks, I started abusing Xanax. My parents and sister hate me now. My friends are distant from me. I dropped my summer classes. Seriously, **** anyone who "ghosts." I've been sober for a few weeks, and it's really given me time to get back to my old self.
That's the thing too, I don't know if I can trust anyone the same way again. It's going to be pretty hard for me. And I also have the fear of having to wait too long for that to come, because I've gained weight from the alcohol and feel unattractive as ever -- plus I can be quite picky.
What I am completely certain I have gotten from this, which I am extremely grateful for, is how to never treat someone in love. I will never stoop to ghosting someone like he did. I've gained a stronger sense of morality.
You never really stop loving someone, you just learn how to suppress the sentiments and memories. I went through the SAME EXACT thing. It's difficult for me to comprehend how anyone can just let go of someone like that unless they've been cheated on or severely betrayed. Maybe she's just buried the sentiment through another love. 
And yet, he can pull it off.
