[FunkyDinevo]

Originally posted by accelgors

i've walked out crying from a couple therapy sessions. i vividly remember when we talked about how at the time i always thought of myself as smarter than everyone else, and he challenged me to explain why i was smarter because he knew that an egotistical trait like that would turn off people from being my friend and make me more judgmental of others. but i had built that up as a defense mechanism from social rejection. so in the end he was right, and i like to think i'm better about that now and i'd be a much more unpleasant person right now if i hadn't, but it kinda took a bit of a punch in the ego to get there.

it's so weird (and kinda scary) when you let your defenses down and your true self is vulnerable

[Almodusa]

Yeah isn't that a 'personal fable'? @austin

[accelgors]

Originally posted by Ryan Bálor

I agree with everything you said. It just didn't seem really safe today. In part because I wasn't coming in to discuss that thing today.

I didn't get to tell her about the progress I've actually been making in regards to that, because I was so upset. I didn't want to spend the next two weeks feeling dirty and violated, that's how I always feel when we discuss my trauma. From her POV, I guess my depression/anxiety these last couple of weeks are a result of that, which may be true, but I know what triggered it this time. So yeah...it seems like I'm making excuses, I'm trying not to, I just didn't feel right in the moment.

i mean, in the end, i don't know your life. so as long as you're being open when it's necessary, that's fine. i just think people tend to dump on psychologists for doing their jobs sometimes

[Lyrical.]

How do y'all feel about the username "Savage" is it tragic?

[Changes]

gonna need like 10-20 therapy sessions to get me emotional. i'm kind of a stonewall.

[Click Clack]

Originally posted by Lyrical.

How do y'all feel about the username "Savage" is it tragic?

That's one of my best friend's nickname so go for it lol.

[FunkyDinevo]

Originally posted by Ryan Bálor

I rarely do that. Vulnerability scares me. I have to protect myself, because if I don't I'll be hurt. Again. Even with the few people I do trust, I have a hard time letting down that final wall.

oh i've only done that with my therapist. still learning how to let my guard down. I have to tell myself that I have to be honest to a certain someone if I really want to pursue something special. If I can feel like my true self around him and actually not feel bad, then it's all good

[accelgors]

Originally posted by Almodusa

Yeah isn't that a 'personal fable'? @austin

yeah, and it's something a lot of teenagers (especially ones that were outcasts) go through

[Nemo]

Obviously but you need time to go at your own pace, and majority of the time feeling like the therapist is pressuring or rushing you into talking about certain things is only going to prevent that from happening.
There are some things about me which I have not told a single therapist in my whole life yet, very deep and disturbing things nor will I until I have a therapist I know very well and feel comfortable with/talking to and feel that it is the right time.

[Prismy]

videos like these are so fun to watch, hyuna and jiyoon's final battle at the last seconds lol

someone should do this for 5H

[Woo]

Originally posted by Changes

gonna need like 10-20 therapy sessions to get me emotional. i'm kind of a stonewall.

same tbh

[Sabbath]

Ryan, I'm glad you went to the therapist and that it helped you at least a bit!
I understand being afraid of vulnerability, you should be proud of yourself for opening up a little.

You should definitely keep going, I hope it works for you.

[Click Clack]

I haven't sat with yall all day, what's good?

[Almodusa]

Welcome to my clinic: tell me your problems and I'll try not to laugh

[Nemo]

Originally posted by Lyrical.

How do y'all feel about the username "Savage" is it tragic?

I really like it actually!

[Prismy]

omg there's one for WFH

lauren clocking in w over a minute by saying work

poor camila

[Click Clack]

I'm sick of these damn firecrackers.

I thought somebody was shooting at me last night.

[Woo]

fireworks are the dumbest things ever

[moonlight.]

tbh i would only change my username to Cashmere, Blossom, Passion, Luminous, or Moon
since i think they fit my aesthetic the most

[Almodusa]

Originally posted by moonlight.

tbh i would only change my username to Cashmere, Blossom, Passion, Luminous, or Moon
since i think they fit my aesthetic the most

The second!