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Originally posted by accelgors
oh and i hung out with my sister for a long time today! she's almost never home nowadays so she came here for a few hours to move her stuff (she's moving to louisville for a job) and we hung out and it was really fun. i like my sister a lot. so my day was pretty good and that's where i was all day
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Cool. So i was at the library today and I was thinking about ur experiences that u shared a couple of days ago. Well, sis, it turns out that I had a flashback of when my friends weren't at all with me. It was a couple of years ago -- now I have a goodish base of friends. But back then i was very lonely because my friends were setting a standard for our time together. I guess I also contributed, but I always wanted them 2 adapt to my situation. So we didn't really get along.
At the library, i got the chance 2 reflect on these instances. I am much more happy and pleasured now that I am more in touch w/ my person. I really like people and meeting new folk. I am trying to bend and be flexible in so many ways. I am finding that this helps me cope w/ my "anxiety" about certain things (e.g. work and activist sessions). I suppose foregrounding the pleasures that come w/ being queer in straight time helps for me. The disjuncture i feel is so affective tho, sometimes it's hard. I guess i can draw on that emotional or affective economy and make a better life of my realities.
Sigh...I'm excited 4 next week tho cos i think im seeing my friend and doing tutoring. Hope 4 the best x
