Go back on another date with virgin boy tomorrow, is it sad i'm hoping to run into my crush at this emo club and make him jealous

gah I am awful because Vigrin boys likes me a lot, but I have no feelings anymore after being heart broken over 20 times now...I just play guys now
haha , nah it's only because his not as hot as the guy im crushing on...I can't even date anyone else now I hate a hot guy but got rid of him because he was'nt "him" gahh I just want an emo guy that wears eye liner and won't go baled anytime soon.