Ughhhhh it's crazy how much watching Bey perform through a computer screen can affect me I swear

I can literally just spend all day watching performances of her and not tire of it or get bored. And no matter how many times I watch many of those performances, most of them still make me feel the same magic that I felt the very first time watching them! Most of the time while watching her performances I don't, can't, rather, simply just watch them while remaining completely composed. I am almost always doing some combination of just shaking my head in admiration and/or disbelief, cuffing my hands over my face, saying things like "oh my God, oh my God, oh my God" out loud -- or things that don't make even make any damn sense --, moaning/making noises because I'm at a loss for words... And you know when you cry without actually crying? Like without tears, but your breathing and stomach mimic the patters of crying. Well, that. Although there have been countless times that she has brought me to tears throughout the years as well.

Ugh I'm sorry for that. The things she does to me is just, ugh, I truly am unable to explain 100% in words.

I just got super emotional and had to vent somewhere about it.

And I figured where else better than to people who might understand what I'm talking about and not just think I'm a lunatic..

I mean at least I'm hoping you guys know what I mean at least to an extent. Otherwise this is a bit awkward.

But yeah, this is why Beyoncé is my fave. Forever and always. I can't imagine there being any other celebrity in the world who makes me feel how Beyoncé does; who is as important to me than Beyoncé is. I simply just cannot. Nobody can even close to match the extremes that Beyoncé is able to make me feel. And I know one thing for sure, I would not have any other way.
