I've been friends with this Japanese straight guy I've met from my school and it was like so fun to be with him. it's like we have a lot of things in common and we shared a lot of secrets. I didn't tell him I'm gay coz I hate explaining myself, so I just let him see the real me. We were so close and ppl even thinks that he likes mw, etc.
and then last night, I went out drinking with him with a ****ty gay friend of ours and that **** told me that they had oral fun and even described his manhood to me.
I was so devastated not because I want to be in the ****'s position, Im devastated coz I thought I already have a STRAIGHT friend finally in him. But I was wrong. my gaydar sucks.
I'm sad that he let a **** friend of ours give him his first. Maybe he wants to try it but I'm not into sexual kind of relationships. I feel bad for him. im confused af. WTH.
*sighs*
