The production/mixing on Night Time, My Time is frustrating, too. It overbears and drowns her out at pretty much every turn throughout the record (except, again, for I Blame Myself). It's so noisy.
You can barely hear her by the time You're Not The One gets to the chorus.
The only song which does this too much to me is I Will, it's all too much. I also still don't know half the words to YNTO (now my most played song! It took me a year to take down Panic! At The Disco ) because the vocals are so quiet.
Oh I know this feeling very, very well. Sometimes there's horrible people in the world who will manipulate situations to get what they want. Don't change who you are though, just keep getting on with life, if you're positive and open, the right people will come into your life eventually. Putting up walls because of horrible people isn't going to stop horrible people coming into your life, it's just going to keep the good ones out. The horrible people will still find a way to be assholes no matter what you do. Picking yourself back up shows you're a strong person and a much better person than those who abuse you and your kindness.
It's just so hard. The first time I open up to someone in this way and it's just a lie. I'm getting more reasonable as time goes on. I'll figure out what to do. I'm not looking forward to this at all. I'm not going to do anything I'll regret. Thank you for the advice. I really do appreciate it.