God, I ****ing hate all of this, I hate this so ****ing much, I've literally never cried this much in my ****ing life. I just want to be happy again. I want all of my negative feelings taken out of me permanently. I never want to feel this way again.
All because I lost the person I've loved for over a year. I still hope that he'll come around, especially after talking with him tonight. But if he doesn't, i don't know what I'm going to do.
