why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
why do you unnerve me? why do you unnerve me still?
why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me still?
If I am hardened, no fear of further abandonment
If I am famous then maybe I'll feel good in this skin
If I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect
And I would throw a party, still it would not come
I would bike and swim and still it would not come
I'd go traveling and still it would not come
I would starve myself, and still it would not come
