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Originally posted by Joaquin
I don't know I think medication is not the way to go when you're depressed.
sure, it works for some people but I believe it's just a temporary fix, I've been depressed, I know what it feels like, but I didn't take any pills to try to "get over it", I didn't like them.
I tried taking antidepressants and that's when I felt most empty and lost, it felt so weird so I only took them for like a week and decided to stop and work from there.
sounds cliche, but it does get better in time, you just have to figure yourself out first.
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I stopped taking anti-depressants because they weren't working and I felt worse taking them. I've since been referred to a psychiatrist and should be seeing them in two weeks. This is probably the fourth try since I was maybe 15 or something.
The thing is, on the outset, I look and act perfectly fine. I mean, I guess so since no one's really asking if I'm okay. It sounds incredibly sad, but the only person/thing that seems to know when I'm not okay, is my dog. I'll just be sitting here and she'll come up to me and act and look sad, attempt to comfort me, etc. In my head, I have all the answers to everything you could ever want to query about life and I think that's my problem; There's no helping someone that cannot be helped.
I feel older than my years, have tried to think of every possible goal, I've considered what's expected of me, and what I could choose for myself, and nothing appeals to me. I feel extraordinary, different, misplaced.. but apparently "not crazy".
This will soon pass. I'll just stfu and pretend I'm okay, everyone and everything and life is okay.. give it bout an hour.
