I'm The Same Way With Rihanna , Katy Perry , Britney , It's Like I Love Them But If Someone Were To Down My Ultimate Fave "Mariah" Then I'll Have To Shade Their Fave
Same for me except I actually don't like Katy perry so I don't feel guilty for shading her.
I don't pretend not to like them, I just like messing around with them, like tickling, poking, or touching them in any playful way. I only do it if they've done it to me, tho. It's awkward for me to make the first move.