Have you ever known anyone you THINK has it or actually has it?

I am pretty positive I have it. It affects perception of your physical appearance to yourself. I see myself as horrible-looking, but I know that cannot be how it is due to what people around me say. You ever have that feeling that what you think does not match what is happening? That is how it is for me. Nothing matches up, so I know my self-perception is grossly distorted.

I think I specifically have acne dysmorphia disorder after I began to obsess about it at the age of 14-15 since, like every other teenage boy, I had/have acne. But I think it has spread to the perception of my entire body. Last year was probably the worst year of my life because I was so consumed by self-hatred. Thankfully I never tried to harm myself.

Anyway, I think the disorder is another form of OCD, or an effect of it. It sucks y'all. But I want to be open about it to help other people who might have it. I'm not "officially" diagnosed but I can piece things together enough to know what's up. I did my research.

It's weird, I don't want to get it treated because it would be too weird to see myself normally again. IDK, plus I would REFUSE medication. I function completely normally otherwise, so i dont know. At this point, it's more of an annoyance than a misery. Sometimes it's really hard still but not much, I think everyone has days like that.

{Please watch this video while keeping in mind my case is extremely mild compared to the people in the video. I certainly can go outside my house & they're much more serious than me}

You're beautiful.

yes, most people tell me im good looking but alot of the time i dont feel that way. Its my weight tho

Saying this stuff to bad BDD sufferers can sometimes make it worse, since they think they're crazy for seeing themselves as being ugly. It's intense.

I watched "Too Ugly for Love" on YouTube yesterday... That's deep. I don't know how I'd handle having it or being close to someone who did. MT, is there a real reason you don't want treatment? Wouldn't it worry you that it could get worseNAND become debilitating in the future?

IDK, the fact that I'm aware of it is enough to keep me grounded. Last year I thought I was seeing my true reflection & it was awful but now I just know what to avoid.

I would get therapy, if anything. Not like medication. I tried therapy last year & it didn't go well.