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Originally posted by kgeezy310
i agree with you. so anything to dishh ?
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Not in a relationship. Not in love.
But lately I've been thinking about a complicated situation i was in about three years ago .
I fell for this senior, my freshmen year after my friend told me about him. He always denied being gay (still does) but I always had a feeling he was.
Anyways, I found out he worked at AE and went one day to the mall. I went in and surely enough he was at the register. I played like i didn't see him and well started browsing the clearance section because lord knows i was only packing $20 that day.
I got closer and closer to him and as he saw me approach he left the register and started roaming the store and soon approached me, didn't say anything at all, looked nervous and I decided to make the first move and called him over and asked him if the shirt i was holding matched the shorts i was holding on my other hand. He told me yes, and he continued to talk about other shorts that could match etc. he got into the conversation. There was something about the way he was talking to me and looking at me that connected between the both of us.
Weeks later, i yet again decided to make a move and friend request him. He accepted.
Soon we became (real life) friends and we would occasionally message each other. One day i just decided to tell him how i felt and he was totally cool about it. After that we started flirting and what not.
One day, he messaged me and decided to tell me something, i would say personnel. He told me to read this book and to message him after i read it. So i went down to the library the next day and got a hold of the book.
The book talked about how a boy discovered his feelings and who he was when he fell in love with another guy. In the end it was forbidden love. After i finished reading the book i really didn't know what to tell him. so i just messaged him that i was done reading the book.
He then came up with some bs explination telling me it was to help me grow. And that day I was devastated because then i knew that nothing really could ever happen between the two of us because he would never want to come to terms with who he was and what his feelings were.
Long, long, long story short. We are still "friends" but don't talk anymore. And the reason I just keep thinking about this is because i blame myself for not being in a relationship with him because i was somewhat delusional back then and wished I could have handled things differently. He was a guy that I would of made all the moves just to be with. (and i did) and I'm not one to make the first moves.
I know this doesn't sound too cohesive but I was trying my best to summarize this whole mess.
