Just over 4 years ago. It was my straight best friend and it ended up being a bit of a disaster
It was towards the end of first year of university and we were really close. We used to act fairly couple-y in terms of cuddling, and he was very protective of me. Even though he had a girlfriend I sort of let myself just fall. Obviously a huge mistake, but it was hard to fight it when I had just moved far away from home and he was the first person I came out to.
A few weeks after I realised, I told him. It really affected our friendship at the time, and the relationship became very volatile. He was impossible to ignore, as we lived together for our entire uni life. A lot of fighting, mostly instigated by me, because I felt him pulling away from me and I got jealous of his other friendships. At times we would go months without talking, other times we would be close again and back to as it was before I told him. Although I normally instigated the fighting, I do blame him partly for being very hot/cold with me.
We're living in different cities now, and we're back to being friends again. I think the distance is healthy for us. I'm not in love with him anymore, but I definitely still love him. I think about him quite a lot, and the thought that he is now single and potentially going to start hooking up with people has brought a few emotions back.
I realise that's probably a bit deep and maybe more negative than you intended but it does help to get it off my chest
) but I think it was august two years ago. I felt really drawn to this guy but it's so incredibly messy y'all would call me a creep if I revealed who that guy was 
