Try not to think of everything all at once, especially the future, let things gradually happen as they come; but, of course you are the one in control of your life, so YOU have to make these decisions that in the end will reflect your life in a positive way.
I had it real bad in the beginning of september, but I'm doing much better now, but it's still there, just have to keep on fighting.
Edit: wait... was this just an attempt to promote your youtube channel? You ain't slick!
