I'm very guarded because I have horrible trust issues
I've been betrayed by so many people in the past that I've just kinda come to expect it now
I don't think I know one person who completely understands me and it makes me sad
I don't like that so many people live under this misconception that, "Everybody ain't ya friend! Ya gotta be careful who you tell your business to!" Like, I completely understand that they're just trying to protect you, but as long as we feed into that idea it just gives those miserable people who like to take advantage of others all of the ammunition that they need to hurt you because they see the insecurity
I also notice a lot of people with this whole, "Positive vibes! Life is all about positive vibes! Happiness all the time!" idea and I think that's equally toxic. One who is happy all he time is manic just like one who is sad all the time is depressive, and when you're manic it's a high that you become addicted to (and it' a dangerous high).
we should be able to talk about feeling sad
It's normalized in our culture to lie about the way that we feel
Someone asks you how you're doing and you say "fine" as an automatic response
but you're not always fine
sometimes you're so angry and so depressed that your start harboring hate for yourself and the people around you and if you don't talk about those feelings they start to manifest physically in the form of destructive behavior, homicidal and suicidal tendencies, cancer and identity disorders
