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I have social anxiety for as long as I can remember, It sucks and I don't really know how to deal with it

Go to psychologist.
Try not to avoid social situations.
Remember a moment where you were confident, remember what you felt in that moment, your reaction, the smell, the sounds.
It's really awful, i had anxiety thanks to my fear of failing so everytime I did presentations I was nervous af but now i can handle it.
Do some couching course or one that makes you give a lot of presentations like oratory, it really helps.

Most of the time, anxiety social is due to low self esteem.
Do you think it's your case?

Yes it might just be it.
When I was young like 8-9 I started getting fat but I changed that and I think I look good. Tho still in every social situation I feel like i'm dieing inside and that every move I make is going to be judged by everyone in the world

Lord I have no idea, I suffer with this and the only time I don't have anxiety in general is when I'm drinking. I can not be social sober

No, but seriously, I've kind of just left my anxiety alone tbh. It's probably not the best advice, but I was much happier when I just accepted it and stopped trying to fight against it. A lot of people have it, so I don't feel alone. As long as I can still find the power to deal with basic social situations, I'm good. Maybe one day I'll find motivation to really deal with it and get rid of it, but right now, I'm better off being at peace and living with it.

Ask your doc for some meds

Avoid people, stay in the house

Put on a song that gives you confidence, makes you seem fierce etc.

This! Right now I'm very busy so it doesn't affect me as much but good lord, it was bad two years ago.

I avoid everything

I went to therapy but it didn't do much for me. I just try to push myself out there these days.

Ok, that "fear" wasn't fully healed.

You need to fully embrace who you are. It sounds easier said than done but "traumas" in childhood can be hard to overcome : you usually think past is in the past but somehow it's still there.

Basically :

- accept your qualities and your defects : they are both who you are.
- be yourself with others, if you don't love yourself, they other won't love you.
- be aware of "how great" you are. That's important !!!

Well, I sum up the all thing but it can be a good start for you

It's really difficult. I've been trying to deal with it my entire life and it's a 24/7 struggle.

Address the source of the problem. Change your behavioral patterns and your thinking process. When you think "people are looking at me", try to think realistically and process those negative thoughts slower. Why would people be looking at you? Don't you think they have better things to be doing with their time. What do you think their insecurities are? Everyone has something about them that they don't like. If you accept yourself for what you are and tackle the thoughts you're having, it'll be less of continuous cycle and won't get worse and worse. No one is actually looking at you. They're not talking, are they?

Once you start to unravel the thought process / continuous cycle then you at the same time replace them with positive ones.

Talk to people that you do like, your friends or family. Become more socially interactive and build confidence knowing that these people are talking to you. They don't have to, and they are. They like you. They like talking to you. They really enjoy your company because you're funny / you're really kind / you're a good listener etc. They're the people you should be thinking about and not other people in public places that you do not know. They don't know you. You don't know them.

Be happy. Surround yourself with positive people and thoughts. You will learn to manage your anxiety. Talk to people!

I suffer with anxiety yet work in retail so it's helped but also is incredibly difficult at the same time. I have no way that I deal with it, I just put up with it.