When I get in that mood i just think my mom would be really sad and I don't like making her sad. That works usually.

Uni and studying is an unnatural time, but honestly it DOES get better. Like the more you live, the more and more choices and freedom you have. Like I've finished uni, have my degree, and work a full-time job. The job is meh, but I'm doing it to save and then travel. I could just live this same life my whole life if I want to, or as long as it keeps my happy. Just get a damn degree / diploma, it is your ticket to the job market and jobs that pay decently, but only the ticket in - you still gotta do all the work to get the job and work upwards.

Yes, there was a time where I just needed relief. It was truly devastating, to the point that I started to feel slightly more relieved just to know that I have killing myself as an option. Before I knew it, I was looking for "motivations not to suicide" .. and I read something really inspiring, and it's that if you still have not killed yourself until now, you're an extremely strong person and deserve to give yourself more chances to survive.

I'm sorry that you're going through these hardships, but can I just say - with all respect - me and billions of people would kill for our biggest problems to be from that kind. You need to appreciate and know the worth of what you have, and how to make the best out of it.

lawd, not the report.... Oh well, thanks guys! I have ppl dm'ing me which is nice

This past weekend was the closest I think I've ever felt to it. Strangely because I am significantly less depressed and hopeless-feeling today than I was 2 and 3 years ago. I was out when I began to feel this way and I spotted two police officers so I approached them and I asked them to help me get to the hospital, and they did. I feel like it was a sign-- from who and/or what, I don't know. And it's likely that it was no "sign" at all, I just feel more peaceful and hopeful thinking of it as one.

Clean your room and organize anything in your closet/backpack as well. Sounds weird but whenever i used to feel a little "under the weather" I discovered that this really helped me and at least alleviated some of the loneliness. I also used to go on tinder and just meet people to chat with them and sometimes hang out (totally platonic). Sounds lame but sometimes just meeting someone new who also just wants to meet someone new as well can be extremely uplifting.

Idk tho maybe these just worked for me randomly and I'm an outlier but hey, you never know. Feel better 💖

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