I'm at a point in my life where I desperately need some professional help, but I'm scared to open up to my GP, she would never expect me to have all of this mess in my head (I just hide it well).
I don't know what to do.

I think it's best to just remind yourself that you only have one life and it's important to make it a happy one. Open up a bit and start on the path toward creating a happier life for yourself. Don't be afraid to be vulnerable. You got this!

Remember that your general practitioner talks to hundreds of people a week and has most likely heard your story already.

You'll be surprised - "okay, okay" and give you treatment with no judgement whatsoever. You haven't failed unless you try.

Edit: Echoing what ManDown said below me, there's people here you can talk to, myself included.

Don't be afraid to reach out. I know it's hard, but you'll feel so much better. At 15, I was depressed, extremely suicidal (and had attempted a few times), and just at a really bad place in my life. I made the decision to seek help, and am happy to say I've overcome my past. It's hard to see the "finish line" (if you will), but it's definitely there. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

I agree with the above. Get the help you need! I know it can be scary to talk about these issues, but do it for yourself. If you don't stand up for your mental health needs, no one will be able to for you. I hope all goes well.

I don't think GPs are really surprised by anything. I think they would prefer to aid you in seeking help than see some guys fungal infection. Just go and let them know how you're feeling, if by any chance they aren't as helpful as you hoped, try and see a different GP at the same surgery.

Yes, it's extremely unlikely that anything you could reveal would leave her scandalized in any way. In her line of work, she's seen and heard most everything. Mental health issues touch the lives of more people than you may think. For many, they're a part of the human condition. Anyone in her profession should be sensitive to your plight.

If you'd broken your leg, would you leave it untreated, desperately hoping for it to heal on its own, or would you go in and have it looked at so it could be taken care of?

Her job is to keep you healthy. In this case, that isn't something she can do if you aren't able to be forthcoming and honest with her about what's happening. It's okay to be fearful, but remember that this is what she's there for. Best wishes.

Go to a cstholic church and talk to a priest in an anonymous confessional booth. A priest will talk you through your issues even if you aren't religious!

Please do! Your doctor can help you. I opened up to mine and he was really understanding and made sure I got the right help, there is nothing to be ashamed or afraid of

Wow. Do NOT do this.

Anyway to echo what others have said - go to your doctor, trust me they will have heard it before and likely won't even bat an eyelid. They're there to help and find solutions to make you feel better, not to judge in any way.

It sounds cliche but there really is always a light at the end of the tunnel where mental health is concerned. Good luck with your journey!

Your health is above everything, absolutely go to see a doctor if you feel that you need it, don't be afraid.

I hide it well
Hope you can tell
But I hope you smell my perfume

Seriously though, you need to open up to someone about it. Don't let it linger and take over your life.

I've been in this situation before I would just make an appointment with someone and go see them and if you don't like them see someone else the next week and keep doing that until you find someone you like