I wouldn't say impossible, but, as I said in my wall-post, tricky.
Because I don't really follow gay trends, dating can be hard for me. Some people read me as straight, while others read me as different or not-straight. Ive hooked up in the past, but these moments are rare. Not everybody likes fondling in a quick way. I like both: quick play and long-term relationships. I think I would prefer the latter. Again, I've not been in much intimacies in a while. With anxiety and other issues, my life (and death
) can be difficult and awkward.
One thing I've been trying to do is lower my expectations. I tend to suffer from perfectionism, so I often strive for perfection. The trick here: the gold standard is hard to achieve. And, apparently, good is good enough. So, by lowering my expectations, I think I can hit a lower or better standard. For me this lower standard is more realistic. So, I'm trying to respect people and our capacities in order to not feel disappointed so quickly. I think by staying grounded I can thrive, be it through a hook-up or long-term base.
