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Tricky 2 answer.
If we use the medical model of disability, no, not really, although my "depression" is linked 2 my eating disorder, perfectionism, and gender dysphoria.
If we use the social model of disability, yes, I am depressed. I have anxiety that is substantially caused by the environment. My environment is ableist, sexist, racist, transphobic, homophobic, fatphobic, sizeist, ageist, and the like of what it means to be on colonized land, i.e., Canada.
If we use BOTH the medical and social models of disability, I am a mess. I am a creature of love, hate, and "mixedness." This ambivalence best embodies me. It sums up my mixed feelings and contradictory ideas of following normative, paradigmic definitions of "depressed." According to my radical both/and politic, I am DEPRESSED in a way that is clinical, but this clinicality, as it is related to my other PURPORTED disorders, is merely this: purported.
So, it is tricky. I am a multifaceted person who likes challenging normative definitions of gender, disability, fatness, ageism, racism, and other categories like these. These aren't merely categories; they are embodiments. My embodiment is multifaceted by being played by BOTH the medical establishment, as it pathologizes me (and others like me, surely?), and myself, as I **** with gender, race, class, disability, etc. My "health" ain't at stakes; in fact, I think my "health" is socially constructed. I think it's BOTH imagined (by myself and others) and embodied, or affective. In the light of this play, I simply like to say that I "play" with definitions and language.
Thus, I am kinda depressed. I am de-pressed: de- in the sense of trying to undo the depression, while actively trying to critique; de in the sense of decolonizing depression; and pressed in the sense of being angry and resentful towards white, racist, capitalist, sexist, fatphobic, ableist, ageist, homophobic -- u get the drill -- EUROCENTRIC values and knowledges. The Eurocentre can try to grip me; bitch imma grip it back with my radical self-luv politic.
When will U? R U ready for my ANTIcoloniality?
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