14 days of classes left, and I am DONE.

I took Calc AB and got a 4 on the AP so I got credit and placed into Calc 2. But I did NOTHING in that class, there were only four of us in it so our teacher was super lax. Our homework wasn't graded and we could use notes on the tests but my lack of effort in that class really showed in Calc 2 when I couldn't even do the review problems our first week

I mean, the subject matter itself of Calc 1 wasn't too challenging for me, in fact I thought it was kind of interesting, but college Calculus moves way too fast. Actually, at my college Calc 1 and 2 are the most failed classes and have the lowest average GPAs.

I like the material, to be honest and I feel accomplished when I understand the concepts. But my Calc teacher assumes that we're geniuses and skips steps and flies through the material. I end the sessions understanding the abstract concepts but not knowing the exact methods to solving a problem, and it ****s me up on homework and tests.

Y'all my internship in LA just got confirmed, and I start on May 13. omg
I'm gonna be living Downtown, feeling tha revitalization, and working in the Miracle Mile District.

Calc is a bitch. I passed Calc III last semester and thankfully I'm now done with it all, but I seriously thought I didn't have a chance at the beginning of the semester Hang in there, y'all.

Totally forgot to update this thread but exactly 2 months from today I'm starting an internship at Walt Disney World! Plus only 4 more weeks of school! I'm just excited that I came back from spring break because I feel like I have more energy now.

52 more days left for me!! Can't wait tbh. I got into Syracuse and NYU and I'm kind of having a hard time choosing. I'm leaning more towards SU because I want a traditional collegetown, soemthing NYU is the stark opposite to, but I also love Stern (the business school). I've only been to NYU, but I've heard SU has a beautiful campus.

Anyone been there that can give me a better sense of what school is like there? I know winters are bad, but I'm fine with that.

GOD why am I literally so ****ing stupid oh my god. I am SUCH a mess. I've had all week to study for my two midterms today with 5+ hours of genuine free time each day of the week, yet didn't start studying until last night. I used one of my allowed absences for my 5pm lab last night and didn't even start studying until after it would've been over even though I got back to my room at like 2. I have been doing this **** since I started college last semester and you'd think I'd learn. And over spring break I went to my family doctor about getting on an ADHD med since my university health services have tried me on two different antidepressants which haven't done **** in any way besides give me side effects, but she gave me ****ing Ritalin, which just makes me excited about literally anything besides class and doesn't actually help me focus, if anything it makes it harder to focus and then the crash is ****ing awful and ruins my mood and makes me overwhelmingly nauseous. Well on Tuesday I felt really good and was actually excited to study the rest of the night and then I had discussion section for Human Sexuality and I get major social anxiety in discussion sections since we're graded on participation and sexuality already isn't something I'm comfortable talking about and even though I had a really good comment to make I just couldn't do it and then I ****ing hated myself afterwards because every single point in that class matters and that's an easy ****ing point to earn. So I felt like **** the rest of the night and even redosing didn't help me feel better. So then last night I focused more on studying for Human Sexuality today than Statistics for Psychology bc Sexuality is all about memorization whereas this section of Stats has been really easy and I wasn't too worried. But it ended up that my Sexuality test was ridiculously easy between common sense and remembering almost everything from lecture, and my ****ing Stats test was practically in a different language compared to the homework/practice problems we're given in the class and I don't know what the hell I even slopped down on that. And now I barely have time to recover since I have to start and finish my research paper for Sexuality this weekend on top of start and finish editing my second film project for Media Production and that's basically how the rest of my month will go.

Like why am I so unmotivated? Is it because I'm at a college that I hate/hate the location? Do I even hate it here or is it just because I didn't get what I want? Is it because I'm depressed? Am I even depressed since I was diagnosed with dysthymia? Do I even have that since that was diagnosed through my university whereas my family doctor said I have ADD? The one antidepressant that also treats ADD didn't work for me, so.

I was considering the idea of staying here another year since I probably won't get into Northwestern and definitely not UPenn but it is absolutely not happening unless some medication can magically fix my state of mind. I don't even know if being in a real city/a college I want to be at will change my way of thinking but I'm not gonna know if I stay here so I'd rather accept that disappointment than keep thinking about it. But the way this semester's looking, if I don't get into Northwestern or UPenn right now, I'm not going to get into any city university I want to be at besides maybe UMN by applying next year. Annoying as **** how my ACT didn't raise to a 34 until after I got all my freshman decisions but now it isn't going to mean anything when my GPA after this semester will probably be 3.3-3.5. And judging by the transfer decisions Northwestern has already sent out, there is no reason I should be accepted unless they really care about demonstrated interest since I've all but sold them my ****ing soul. I would rather take a year off to sort out my mess of a life than be here another year.

I thought this semester would be better than last since I'm taking classes that I'm actually interested in but it's exponentially more stressful. Probably doesn't help three of them are 300 level and my Stats is 200 level and I'm one of the only freshman in all of them. Probably should've left at the end of last semester.

I don't expect anyone to read all that but I really needed to get it out so

I went through and am still going through a similar thing. I'd sit down in a space with no distractions and set out time to study and do my work and it just wouldn't happen. Hours would pass and hardly any progress would be made. I could only find the motivation to get stuff done in crunch time, leading to lackluster work product. It surprised me because I was never like that in High School. In fact, I often did my work as soon as possible just to get it out of the way. I don't really have any advice to give (since I'm still figuring it out myself) other than try not to get to the point where you just don't care, and maybe see if there's some professional you can talk with on campus or nearby.

I definitely feel for you guys. I've been having very similar college experiences, minus the medication. My first year was such a failure, depression, and anxiety filled disaster that I pretty much had to leave the school. Now I'm going to a community college, which is easier, but I'm nearly just as unmotivated. Many days I don't even make it my second class of the day because I'm so bored, tired, and over it. I feel better than last year, but I still haven't turned my life around by any means. Problem is I don't know what to do. I think I'm just so disinterested that I feel no sense of motivation or urgency? Mind you, the community school is easier but much less exciting. I've barely met anybody, everyone comes and goes because it's a commuter school, and there just isn't really much at all to do at the school or in nearby towns. Like, I'm doing better academically and health-wise I guess, but I still struggle to get up and face the constant work I have to do. My life kind of feels like one chore after another and living at home with my family again has honestly drove me up a wall more than it's helped. At this point, I'm just hoping to get into the university I applied to so I can transfer after this semester, finally start studying my field of interest instead of doing only core classes, and return to living on a campus in a more urban area.

I'm just besides myself thinking about how much easier high school seems to be, looking back. Like, I was so "smart" and "responsible" back then without having to try much. What the **** happened? Adulthood?

Coming from a math lover, Calc is the absolute PITS. It's surprising to me since I loved pre-calculus but I just can't stand Calc. I don't understand most of the concepts and as a result I just barely cruising in the course. I'm going to try to actively re-teach myself all the lessons because I really want a 4 or 5 on the AP exam. And I don't want to retake this in college.

Waitlist for Georgetown law I am actually so happy since it means I still have a slight chance at acceptance. I just wrote an additional letter of continued interest in hopes they see I would definitely attend if accepted.

I had two tests in anatomy within three days

Just a few more weeks and I'm DONE

CALC III is horrible.

I'm assuming that it's similar at your school...multivariable ? Either way, Gauss, Stokes, and Green can all go get hit by a car.

man honestly...i don't want to make college sound too scary, but i have to warn high school students here: if you get a professor in college that's an asshole, you really can't do too much about it. there's not really any kind of way to make them be nicer to you, and a lot of the meaner ones aren't understanding about things at all. so just prepare for that, i guess? sometimes your grades are at risk just because the professor's a douche, and that's not fair at all, but it's what can happen.

i guess this is kind of a vent because more than one of my professors has been pretty unfair towards me this semester, and i'm kinda sick of it, you know? anyway yeah, that's my warning i guess

College is ****ing hard

Like getting a 40% is passing in one of my classes

I'm skipping class so much this semester. At least once a week for each class
I feel awful every time
I'm still doing well though. I've been busy trying to get an internship and finally got one

Currently in the middle of a 4 exam week and I'm so tired already

my first final is monday at 8 AM, and my last is friday afternoon, meaning that not only do i have to take an exam early monday morning, but i also can't go home until friday night this is the second semester this has happened too