ugh i know the feeling when you love something but lose hope beacuse of you're really in a bad place..

Did you aspire to be a singer, artist? what did you wanna be when your older (grammer bad srry)
can u use photoshop, illustrator......

yass queen katy </3 you have great taste...

don't cut plz don't do that to your body it may give you a quick relief but your damaging yourself and only gonna get worse, the first step to recovery is not to do that
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Literally everyone who has posted in this thread is here for you. Just know that even if you're having a tough time in real life right now, you can consider any of us your friends and talk to us etc. It's just as valid as real life friends which you can also easily get once you move out of that circle you're in right now that makes you feel bad. We all care about you and no one would want to see anything happening to you, not just killing yourself but also your general depression right now. Hopefully you can find solace in the fact that everyone cares about you and would gladly talk to you and listen to anything you have to say

I second talking to a hotline/therapist/whatever. They really are there for you and it's their job for a reason. It's their job because they're truly dedicated to making people feel better about themselves and lifting them out of any hole of sadness they may be in. If you can find a therapist in real life I feel it'd be helpful. So many people who have used therapists have even considered them their best friend.

It sounds like what you really need in life right now is a friend. A REAL friend who's not gonna do you like those other people did. You've already accomplished step 1 of recovery: being able to admit how you feel and that you really are sad. That's extremely brave to do, ESPECIALLY on a public forum. I wish you good luck in recovering and all of us are ready to see it. You're NOT a waste of life and you have so much potential and assets that you may not know about right now. You won't regret staying and finding help for yourself, along with some real friends (which you will find if you try)

Okay, it's understandable that you might want to take some time to calm down.

If you don't live alone, I want you to go into a room where the people you live with are in/have access to. Somewhere where you can't sit privately.

It looks as if you have good perspective, which is important. However, your problems are just as important as anyone else's. I can see that you're going through a really hard time right now.

But things can change & they can change for the better, with time.

It might be a good idea to do something to take your mind off things while you're there, like listening to some music (Unconditionally, Dark Horse, ET, Firework), watching some television or doing something else you enjoy.

Sometimes physical activity can help, but I know it's quite late so doing something to distract yourself for a while might be enough. Talking about personal and emotional things can be really draining. It's good to see that you are taking care of yourself in this way and are able to see when you've had enough.

The next time you feel low, feel as if you're about to cut or harm yourself; can you go online to talk to one of these services?

Watch this seeing as though you like to watch katy, maybe she will help you feel stronger and know you are valued. Also i am sure you like her song Firework, listen to it whenever you feel sad or depressed, it will help you hopefully

And omg DON'T feel bad about being upset. You have every right to feel upset and it definitely doesn't make you a worse person. You don't owe yourself the facade of pretending to be okay when you're really not, but you do owe yourself the chance to get through your obstacles, no matter how hard they may (and ARE right now) be.

Thanks it's really nice of you to say that. I think i'll just wait and see what's happening and decide it from there.

I still hope that they can change and be the persons i met at first, maybe that's why i am sad idk

I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to

This post is so true. I guarantee the reason why they're being manipulative and mean is because you're a fantastic person and they wanna benefit from that. They wanna use you for your greatness but then dump you when they can't anymore. They're just horrible people a great person like yourself doesn't need to be around and once you find people that are as nice as yourself you'll feel so much better

Exactly

My dream for a time was to become a singer, but i convinced myself that i wasn't talented enough so i just stop dreaming and pursued a "normalm life :/

BTW those two guys are NOT your friends and I hope you stay away from them.. they are not good for you especially if they stole your money. Trust me sis knowing a lot of people does not you wont be lonely.. Ask some people in here I have lots of friends have an active social life and stuff and I still feel alone!! we all have our days boo I hope you get well. Have u thought about seeing someone? you need therapy boo especially if you cut yourself

who the hell reported this? y'all are really stupid.

Omega, I feel I'm alone in this world too, sometimes, and it's depressing, I'm also feel weak and I feel like I'll never be independent or successful. but it's pure ********. I can say that most of people feel that way in one moment or another,but don't let it get you down, are you in the College now? what do you want for your future? you're too young to think it's all over! you're still a baby I wish I was 18 now your live hasn't started yet, the best is yet to come

In ten years who knows! you could be winning that Oscar for Best Original Song that Gaga failed to win.

Do not feel bad for your emotions sis

Get the help you know you need, hope things start to look up for you

But how can i know when someone is truly sincere with me ? They seemed very nice at the beginning too. Like they always asked me to hangout etc. I would have never guessed they would leave me like this.

I don't know if i can trust people now i don't want to be hurt again

Im scared i don't want anyone to know about my issues so i avoid seeing a therapist or else

I don't want them to inform my parents they are kinda hard with me they want me to be "perfect". So if they know they'll put more pressure on me

I definitely feel like you've had low self esteem, even before you became as depressed as you are right now. I think that's what MADE you so upset. Those people really hurt you but it seems like you're blaming yourself; at least a little bit? Them being total assholes is completely on them, not you. You've done absolutely nothing wrong so please don't feel like you have. You doing stuff right is what led to them wanting to hurt you, anyway.

I need to know whether you will do this before I go to bed!

you can still chase that dream, record songs post them on soundcloud, lift urself up by writing some music or making some covers.... just simply doing something that you love can list your mood a bit
also watching your fave tv shows and listening to you fave music too.

now we know the root of your problem (the people) drop them, with could help you stop feeling hopeless and harming....

try to start looking forward and study i know you've got what it takes to be amazing. we're rooting for you baby and reach your goal to get the job of your dreams,

Don't feel like that Life is like a roller coaster there's always ups and downs your just at the down position right now

Hope you feel better sis <3