honestly sis, I don't know you but you're prob not trash - I've been really depressed lately too, I think part of it is just the winter, but just keep it together and try to have a sense of humor about how crazy/****** things can be and don't be so hard on yourself
Its okay sis. Let me refer you to my therapist. We're gonna get through this together. I believe in you and I love you too much to not be there for you. Today is the first day to your new life. The rest of your life. Let's get to work.