Well I've been trying to gain weight for over a year now, I work out all the time and I eat a lot (at least four meals a day and other stuff) and I haven't been able to gain weight at all basically or look any different and it's incredibly upsetting whenever I see someone who isn't built like a twig. I'm obsessed with my body ever since I started trying to gain weight and there's no escaping thinking about it. If I think about it too much I get a panic attack hihi! I hate working out and all this **** so much. Every time I look up anything about this it's always **** on the ****ing bodybuilder forum and other places where they say how disgusting it is to be thin if you're a guy and how all you have to do is eat and lift weights like it's so ****ing easy. I know this is the stupidest thing to be so upset about but it affects my whole life. People never wanted to be friends with me until I started dressing better and got contacts, and now no one ever wants to be good friends with because I have such a bad body and a ****ed up face.
Why do you care what other people think though? I know that's easy to say, I guess you can't just stop caring, but really why is that so important? If you want to gain weight, get fit etc. do it because you want it for yourself, not because you think it's what other people want. If you put your mind to it and work hard at it I'm sure you'll get there. Also try not to compare yourself to others, that doesn't help anything. They're doing their own thing and you're doing yours. Who cares if people say it's disgusting to be thin, they're not worth your time. Also if people didn't want to be friends with you until you got contacts/dressed differently they're not your real friends, you can do better than that .
How long have you been working out? You should talk to a nutritionist about your eating habits and what you can do to bulk up more. Maybe talk to a professional trainer and ask for advice on which types of exercises will give you the best results.
Don't sweat about your body though, as long as you're trying then you're in the right direction. Keep on motivating yourself to work out. Work out for your own satisfaction, not to grab the attention of others. If you're confident in your own body and your own life, that's all that matters. Don't live for other's expectations for yourself, that'll put you in a pretty bad place.
I'm working with a professional trainer but I've been keeping it a secret and anyways he days everything is fine and I'm getting stronger but I don't believe him. Also I can never love myself until I have a better body and I could never do it for my own satisfaction because I wouldn't do jack **** and everyone would say how I just need to turn my ****ing life around and then maybe things will get better for me and I won't be so sad all the time and annoYing to be around
Why do you care what other people think though? I know that's easy to say, I guess you can't just stop caring, but really why is that so important? If you want to gain weight, get fit etc. do it because you want it for yourself, not because you think it's what other people want. If you put your mind to it and work hard at it I'm sure you'll get there. Also try not to compare yourself to others, that doesn't help anything. They're doing their own thing and you're doing yours. Who cares if people say it's disgusting to be thin, they're not worth your time. Also if people didn't want to be friends with you until you got contacts/dressed differently they're not your real friends, you can do better than that .
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Thanks a lot for the encouragement but I've had this it will work out if I keep trying mindset for over a year and it hasn't worked. I'm constantly improving form, diet etc and it makes no difference
Omg me too. Some of them are so rude and arrogant too.
What's worse is that they all tend to take the same classes and if I have a class right after them I can smell their remaining cotton ball odor that lingers on for at least 20 minutes. I considered dropping that particular class cause the smell is just so bad.
They always clump together and talk so loudly, I can't stand it. They also hate the asian americans and there's apparently some rivalry going on. Dddd....
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