aShdhrthe sis

I was inlove with my straight friend (we were like 4 or 5 best friends, he was one of them). Looking back I really don't know what was wrong with me Now I definitely don't feel anything anymore, I ain't even sure I was really in love or just a stupid highschooler

I haven't been really in love and it kind of hurts me, I've only had crushes and I had like 2 sex dates, but I think I deserve better

I want to have something special tbh, don't even need to have sex. But I am such a closed person that it's really hard to meet new people, let alone new gay people, let alone new cute gay people, let alone cute gay people that find me cute too

yes, with my own cousin.

Yes, most of them were straight.
The messiest one was I fell for my lecturer I can't blame myself because he's so hot

Inb4 someone says his brother

My brother.

I used to, but now? Not really
Can't control who I am attracted to, but can tame my emotions

Yes too many prohibited men The struggle

Current

The guy I lost my v to. He only wanted sex.

Yes, it was the first guy i ever had any sort of relationship with. He originally told me that we could try to have a relationship but it was obvious after a little bit that he just wanted sex and a NSA type of thing. I become so attached to him cause he was the first guy that i ever cuddled, kissed, had sex with etc... He was 34 and I was 18..

I stopped seeing him for a whole year but he would keep texting me telling me he misses me and i still wanted to see him, so i went for one last fling right before i moved across the country. I realize we werent even compatible, a real relationship couldve never worked. But i just think about him everyday still and i cant help it. He was handsome and liked me for who i am. There is much better out there but until i find better i guess ill be stuck on him, ive hooked up with guys after him and it hasnt helped anything, he is still all i think about.

My high school German teacher

A straight guy. We became close friends really fast because our two friend groups were combining. He knew what he was doing, everyone kept joking that we liked each other and he was flirty af. I ain't even mad I still love him as a person