I feel genuinely sorry for anyone who doesn't think they'll ever come out. I think as a gay person you'll never truly be able to be yourself if you can't come out to at least
someone because you'll always be living a lie pretending to be someone you're not

Like I was in a bit of a similar boat during my mid-teens but when I finally did come out all the worries I had about it seemed not to matter. I know it isn't the same for everyone since I'm privileged to live in the UK where most people nowadays are open-minded towards sexuality and in my community religion isn't really a huge factor in the moral stance of the average person, but I realise not everyone is so lucky.
Hopefully y'all personal situations change in the future and you'll be in a place where you can come out and be happy about it.