Honestly 85% of the people I talked to were fake or were relationships that were negligible; that benefited neither of us. There's two friends I miss who I wish would have kept in contact more who I might try to talk to more, beyond the one I'm still very good friends with, but honestly... I don't really miss anyone else that much. And it's hard for me to be sorry about it; I got along with everyone to the point of being elected senior class president and all, but did we all really care about each other? I moved on with my life. 80% of our class - a record for our city - stayed behind and didn't leave for college. That simply wasn't my life plan, and it's fine that it was theirs, but I had other things to do. I wanted to get out there, experience something new, and build a life for myself - keeping in contact out of some idea of obligation would have hindered me. I've made amazing friends at college who might actually live in the same place as me, who might work with me, and with whom I have a mutual respect and fondness. We enjoy each other, we laugh together and have fun and act like idiots and talk about our real dreams and desires. Back home? We never did that. We were all friends as a consequence of physical location, with real lasting bonds few and far between. I left, and where I am now, all the friendships share something in the dreams we brought to college and the lives we want to build. That's something special.
Sorry 4 the tirade, it's late and I'm tired and all g'night peeps
