I feel like I was and still am a little. I feel like I will never get the 100% genuine love from my parents since I like men.
One day my sister said "I would go lesbian for Kehlani"
And then she continued and said "But I'm just kidding though"
Then my mom said "Thank God, I'm glad you aren't lesbian"
The anger that came upon me was A LOT. Since I do like men and I am a guy I got really upset and I almost cried because I still feel like my mom hasn't accepted me.
I haven't came out nor will I ever because other people don't need to know about that. If I do then people will constantly be reminded of it and that's all I'll ever be known for. Also I'm not completely gay, I'm bi so there is that.
You should have stepped in and educated them. You deserve to be comfortable with your family.
But sometimes in life, you have to realize that parents aren't perfect and that you can't rely on them all the time like society teaches us. I learned that from my coming out experience.
Not a lot of people admit those feelings you described but I feel like a lot of LGBT people feel that way including me. Coming from a Caribbean family, being gay automatically makes you an outcast and sometimes I avoid family gatherings because I just can't be my agnostic, homosexual, open minded & liberal self around them.
I've come to accept that this might never change and I have no choice but to be okay with it.
I can't put the all the blame on them tho, Religion & growing up in a different time than us are huge factors.
I understand why you were so angry when your mom said that. I can only imagine how conflicting she must feel knowing that you're her child and she loves you but your lifestyle goes against everything she was taught all her life.
Have you ever tried to have an open conversation with her?
I'm asking because I'm not brave enough to do it and I keep putting it off. I often pretend that I don't notice my relatives' reaction to my homosexuality when In fact I do
but I feel like a lot of LGBT people feel that way including me. Coming from a Caribbean family, being gay automatically makes you an outcast and sometimes I avoid family gatherings because I just can't be my agnostic, homosexual, open minded & liberal self around them.