Heres my song for this past round
Round 6 Song
Title: Wicked Entropy
Genre: Hip Hop/Rap
Note: The verses are rapped and the choruses are sung.
Verse 1
They thought I took your diagnosis well.
Hell, I even fooled me too, no else could even tell,
That inside myself I was torn like the fissures in my brain cells.
Like what the ****, stage four, but this wasn’t a simple game.
From then on, life would never, ever be the same.
I convinced myself to make it seem like I didn’t care.
But it hurt me to my soul to see you gasping for air,
Or to see your head in a scarf, covering your missing hair.
Chemicals and radiation only seem to make it worse.
You were the one I never thought I would see hurt,
And I couldn’t, so I kept the visits brief.
But it was for the best, cause you could hardly speak.
I did everything to keep from being so upset.
I told myself, you had more than a few weeks left.
I told myself, you can beat this, I know you can.
Two weeks later, I got the call, you were gone. Damn.
Chorus:
When there’s smoke there is fire,
And I see it all the time.
There’s no love to take me higher,
I’ve been trapped inside in my mind.
The distance creates dissonance,
And the bitterness scatters me.
I drink the the indifference,
In wicked entropy.
Verse 2
I remember your laugh and I remember your jokes,
And at the times when I’m lonely I think of you and I choke.
I thought you’d always be here, even when you said that you won’t.
I was naive to believe, but you admired my hope,
But now I have none, and everyday I reach for that rope.
I’ve been in and out of happiness finding new ways to cope.
I’ve been saving my tears and pouring em in paper cups,
Drinking them down, hoping to heal my heart's paper cuts.
Every one keeps asking me where the **** my passion went.
I can’t keep a steady ground, as if I’m always traveling.
See, you were the one who boosted my confidence when I needed,
And now, I’m hazy, unfocused and I feel defeated.
You said my future was bright, but now the light, I don’t see it,
The bulb has burst in my hands, and my now palms are bleeding.
And it when all gets to much, and thoughts start to swarm,
I look down to where I got your named tattoo’d on my arm.
Chorus:
When there’s smoke there is fire,
And I see it all the time.
There’s no love to take me higher,
I’ve been trapped inside in my mind.
The distance creates dissonance,
And the bitterness scatters me.
I drink the the indifference,
In wicked entropy.
Verse 3
I’ve been wide awake the whole night,
Waiting for your voice to say hold tight,
Cause I’m getting ready to give up.
I know I have some loses to cut,
Cause I can’t keep dragging these chains,
And if I do, I’ll only have myself to blame.
They like to say I’m depressed, but the truth is I’m missing you,
The truth is my anxiety has left me stuck and waiting in queue.
So I write this song in your honor, and I'm hoping you'll hear it,
So when death puts his hand on my shoulder, I won’t even fear it.
Until then, I’m wishing one day you’ll sit on the edge of my bed,
One night, and with no doubt, Ill give you a pound of my flesh.
Until then, when those April Showers come, Ill remember your birthday.
As long as I have breath, your memory will never fade away.
I spend my nights wondering if you’re in a better place,
Because the god they pray to, isn’t as kind as they say.
Extended Chorus/Outro:
When there’s smoke there is fire,
And I see it all the time.
There’s no love to take me higher,
I’ve been trapped inside in my mind.
The distance creates dissonance,
And the bitterness scatters me.
I drink the the indifference,
In wicked entropy.
And I could breathe In the ocean,
To replace my empty chest.
Cause my heart had stopped beating,
The day you went and left.
The solitude creates sorrow,
And the clock ticks take their time.
And if there's joy, its only borrowed,
And it’s always hard to find.