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Originally posted by Dragonfly
I wouldn't say that I 'hate' myself for it, but I do get kinda bitter sometimes
I am looking for a serious relationship, but no one has ever given me a chance
And I get so disgusted if I see this "gay hook-up lifestyle" on tv, or if I hear gay friends talk about it 
At this point in my life, I wouldn't even consider going to pride
I think because it's somehow a celebration of 'sexuality' rather than 'identity'
And it's not because I'm not proud of myself. I came out 6y ago and I'm really confident
I'm just not proud of the stereotypical 'sexual aspect' that is part of my perception of the gay community
Maybe I just need to lose my virginity and it will all go away  |
Some years ago I was looking for a relationship and felt very lonely. I found out you can still feel that way while being inside a relationship. I'm not quite sure if this is all exclusively about loving yourself but once I got rid of that need of being with someone to stop that loneliness, well, I met someone mentally stable and mature enough.
But the thing is, those things come on their own.
Enjoy your own company, love and know yourself and once you give yourself the love you want someone else to give you, you won't ever feel lonely again. Also, that way it'll be easier to attract the right people in your life.
And you're not the only one who things that way about the gay community. Sadly thats how some people are. Although not everyone is living and looking for that hook-up lifestyle. You don't need to lose your virginity, so why speed things up? Let it happen when it's the right time. That way you'll enjoy it more.
