I can't. Like right now I am having soup that my
abusive mother made me.

It is extremely good, but she wanted me to eat fish, like fish out of the sea/ocean.
All my life I've been scarred of fish shitless because when I was little I low-key thought I was going to die because I was choking hard on fishbones.
So right now, when I was eating fish, I felt the bone going done my mouth and I screamed and ran to the kitchen and spat it out in the trash can.
Can you eat fish?