Before I came out I was sooooo sure everybody knew and that I had exposed myself 1000 times over and that everybody must talk about it behind my back
turns out most people were really suprised, several friends didn't initially believe me
one friend was absolutely convinced I was playing a prank, and it took literally months (and seeing me make out with his other gay friend) for him to be convinced
he kept saying how I was always checking girls out and feeling them up (I was just like this is news to me
)shows how paranoid I was of being exposed before I came out I guess.
I'm completely open at uni, and more camp than I used to be but lots of people are still surprised. On the first night of fresher's week me and the "lads" from my block had just walked into the club and I saw a guy with really cool bright green/blue hair, being the drunk mess I was I got his attention and was like "omg your hair is sooo cool" he moved closer and within in 5 seconds we were making out, after I pulled away all the guys were looking at me and one of them just said "well, I wasn't expecting that" and that was all that was said about it
they're all really nice and don't give a **** though (if an attractive gay guy hits on them they'll direct them towards me in the club
)
The next night we were playing never have I ever (A drinking game where someone says "Never have I ever _______" and everyone who has done it has to drink. If you're the only person to drink you have to tell the story) and one of the guys who hadn't been there the night before said "Never have I ever had a threesome" and I was the only one who drank, now this guy is one of those slightly-cringe-y boys-boarding-school gap-yaah-taking posh-rugby-lad so he was like "Story! give us all the deets, was it 2 guys and a girl or 2 girls and a guy? I bet it was two girls, you cheeky bastard" etc.
So I just smirked and said "three boys" everyone else in the room (me included) found it funny but he got sooooo embarrassed and started apologizing and going on about how he didn't mean to not include anybody
Bless him
BEFORE coming out, though...that was a whole other mess. I had like the biggest crush on my straight best friend (see: every gay boys teenage years) and we used to have sleepovers and stuff where we'd talk about girls, he got so horny which in turn made me horny cause I could see his MASSIVE erection through his sleeping bag
so we put on one of those channels on TV with the half-naked girl talking on the phone and doing whatever
and he started jacking off to it and I started jacking off at the thought of him jacking off next to me, but he stopped really quickly and was like "nah this is too weird haha" and I was like "yeah lol so gay" and we stopped
All the times I got dared to kiss a guy and had to give him the tiniest peck and then act all disgusted when really I wanted them all over me