Rant but I'm so tired of these spanish dudes in my area. Literally only good for a **** . Complete trash.
It's so hard to find a black dude here its ridiculous. I refuse to get another BGCLive account. That sparkly sound when you get a new message haunts me. After I told this dude that wouldn't leave me alone that I was a murderer and he replied "good because I want you to beat it till its dead" I was thru.
I just don't know. All the black guys here that are on my level are like white chasers sorta, then the cute lil fem things that I like are kind of so tired of B.S. ****** by the time they get to me I can't deal with their "i don't expect nothing" attitude so it never moves. The last half black dude I was talkin to seemed almost perfect but he had restraining orders on all of his ex boyfriends and I just couldn't risk getting in trouble with the law so I decided to stop talkin to him. He was a dancer with a fat ass tho.
I just don't know. I opened a grindr for 3 seconds and my next door neighbors were on there. They are partnered, its just i can't. They are always winking at me and acting weird and they are these old white dudes, I'm just not into that. I live in the Gay part of town and as far I'm concerned all of the white men over 40 are positive. All they want to do is have "fun". I'm not some colored boy toy.
I wish I lived in Atlanta or somewhere in the "south" that had a good black american population. Cuz god knows I can't with these latin dudes no more.
I just need to drink. Maybe one day I'll be able to move. I just don't want to be with a spanish guy. i want a ****ing black guy
