I used to stan hard for High School Musical/Hannah Montana/The Cheetah Girls. I had all products you guys can imagine, even backpacks and i'm not even kidding. And still, i got mad when guys called me "gay" "***" and other names. No one asks for bullying but i was a mess tbh.
My profile on orkut (the most popular account on my country around that time) was a mess too. I remember joining messy communities, taking weird and gay-ish pics and still saying "**** off, i'm straight!! I'm not a ****ing gay!!" (At the time i already accepted myself as a gay guy, but i wouldn't let anybody know for some reason)
Around 2010 (i was 15) i started to clean the mess i was but some guys started to "play" with me. They stopped calling me "gay" and stopped trying to punch me. They started to act like gays to provoke me (some of them slapped my butt, telling me on my ear "i wanna eat ur ***", sitting on my lap and stuff like this). I acted like "**** off, i don't like that dude!" but inside i was like "yassss gimme that"
I wish i were openly gay during that time. At least some guys would give me silent treatment and stuff but
