Originally posted by HabbGaga

Sending someone a hug, or love shouldn't be considered gay. Doesn't sound gay whatsoever.

I don't know for sure, but I guess we hold onto hoping that each time it'll get easier. I'm not 100% there yet, and I don't know when I will be, to feel complete freedom, and truly not care what people think, is a lot harder said then done. It's something we self-inflict on ourselves, and I can't begin to understand what triggered it, for us. For people who suffer social anxieties, because it doesn't happen to everyone, or at least not to this extent. I wish I could be outgoing, and that's what I'll strive for overtime, and me going to event, and revisiting friends, that were awfully kind to me in highschool, and to me, I walked away, and thought I'd never see them again, I didn't think we were 'friends' we just hung out, because it was easy to do in school. I didn't think I made any sort of impact on anyone, and to even just be invited for me. Although made me sick to the stomach, looking back now. I'm really happy I was invited, and I'm happy I went, and extremely proud of myself. It'll be hard again next time, I'm sure, because it'll be an entirely new setting, and that is if I wasn't such a bore, that people do decide to invite me elsewhere again. But I'm just gonna take it one step at a time, they always say life isn't a race. You'll get there, I'll get there. In time. Maybe not as fast as everybody else, but that's ok. Cause like you said, you've got those A's a 4.0 GP. Others don't have that, not even me.