Seek a therapist.

What kind of drugs do you want to do?

Weed isn't really drugs, it just makes you calm and relaxed although you have different kinds of them, some may burn, but there is still little to no harm from doing it. Lots of people do it right before sleeping cause it helps with that too actually, just don't do it everyday cause it is noticable for others if you've done it and that's still not a good look.

Then there's the pills, 'molly', very popular right now and have always been in the clubbing scene and dance scene, I take one every few months at dance festivals or techno party's. When you want to do these you HAVE to be surrounded by people who have experience, keep yourself hydrated, (a glass of water every hour) and don't take too much.
And remember, these pills exagerate your emotions, so if you're having a ****** night it will only get shittier in you take one, make sure the music's good, people surrounding you are nice and there's nothing on your mind.
Make sure to have gum in your pocket too cause you're gonna grind your teeth (idk why, just a natural reflex) and that's gonna ruin your teeth, so intead, chew gum.

Those are the only drugs I've ever done and honestly I wouldn't do anything else, people close to me have snorted coke and they felt 'on top of the world' but I would advise you to just not do it, it can do weird things to you. My bf did it once and he ended up getting his dick sucked in a park, don't do it.