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News: Trans teen commits suicide because of her religious parents
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Trans teen commits suicide because of her religious parents
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A transgender teenager who committed suicide by walking in front of a tractor trailer in Ohio left a heartbreaking letter in which she blamed her religious parents.
Leelah Alcorn, 17, died in the early hours of Sunday on highway I-71 in Warren County, Ohio, a few miles from her family home.
The high school student left a poignant suicide note accusing her devout Christian parents of refusing to acknowledge her gender and forbidding her from transitioning.
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Leelah's disgusting mom then posted this on her facebook still calling her trans daughter male pronouns and making her death seem like an accident
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The suicide note was posted on Leelah's tumblr account through scheduled publishing just a few hours after her death.
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SUICIDE NOTE
If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.
Please don’t be sad, it’s for the better. The life I would’ve lived isn’t worth living in… because I’m transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally “boyish” things to try to fit in.
When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn’t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don’t tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don’t ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won’t do anything but make them hate them self. That’s exactly what it did to me.
My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.
When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn’t receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.
I formed a sort of a “**** you” attitude towards my parents and came out as gay at school, thinking that maybe if I eased into coming out as trans it would be less of a shock. Although the reaction from my friends was positive, my parents were pissed. They felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight christian boy, and that’s obviously not what I wanted.
So they took me out of public school, took away my laptop and phone, and forbid me of getting on any sort of social media, completely isolating me from my friends. This was probably the part of my life when I was the most depressed, and I’m surprised I didn’t kill myself. I was completely alone for 5 months. No friends, no support, no love. Just my parent’s disappointment and the cruelty of loneliness.
At the end of the school year, my parents finally came around and gave me my phone and let me back on social media. I was excited, I finally had my friends back. They were extremely excited to see me and talk to me, but only at first. Eventually they realized they didn’t actually give a **** about me, and I felt even lonelier than I did before. The only friends I thought I had only liked me because they saw me five times a week.
After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like **** because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided I’ve had enough. I’m never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I’m never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I’m never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I’m never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I’m never going to find a man who loves me. I’m never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There’s no winning. There’s no way out. I’m sad enough already, I don’t need my life to get any worse. People say “it gets better” but that isn’t true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.
That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don’t give a **** which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say “that’s ****ed up” and fix it. Fix society. Please.
Goodbye,
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Mom and Dad: **** you. You can’t just control other people like that. That’s messed up.
I don’t really feel the need to apologize to anyone else… odds are you didn’t give a **** about me and if you do, you did something that made me feel like **** and you don’t deserve an apology.
Also, anyone who says something like “I wish I got to know him better” or “I wish I treated him better” gets a punch in the nose.
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read more: here
her tumblr account: http://lazerprincess.tumblr.com/
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this breaks my heart she must have gone through so much **** bcz of her parents  her mom is a disgusting excuse for a human being
RIP Leelah Alcorn
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This is devastating. I hope she found peace, but I wish she had found it another way.
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omg may she rest in peace
her mom is so wrong for STILL calling Leelah a "he"...she is a girl!
omg this part
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That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don’t give a **** which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say “that’s ****ed up” and fix it. Fix society. Please.
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guys plz make his death matter...plz do something plz help your local lgbt place if possible, plz support gay and transgender ppl..omg
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I'm in tears. RIP angel
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this is terrible.
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Ugh, I hate stories like this! Some people are just not fit to be parents, what gives them the right to bring a child into this world then not accept them for who they are? Disgusting!
R.I.P. sweetheart  .
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ugh this makes me so upset...
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That Mother should be put to death. I'm really upset about this, and can't stop crying. That poor baby.
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I'm actually in tears right now.
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omg this is so sad
rip :-(
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RIP 
This is heartbreaking. And that mother is an absolute **** if she knows what really happened and is misleading her family and friends (that sensored word rhymes with 'runt'). Take full responsibilty for being an ignorant and failing mother.
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R.I.P.
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that God doesn’t make mistakes
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It's kinda ironic that an anti-LGBT said that, and Gaga said it too
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So sad.
This has gave me a headache, I need a nap.
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I'm sure it must be hard to have a trans kid in this world where ''unnormal'' sexual orientations are seen like a funny disability or sickness but just imagine how harder it must be for that kid. **** what the others say, **** what religion says and accept your kid the way he/she is. He/she is a part of you after all.
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Her note popped up on my dash a few minutes ago. Heartbreaking.
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Aw I wish she wouldn't have killed herself but when you're depressed like that and treated like that for so long you hit rock bottom.
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Poor thing.
She would have looked like Rosario Dawson if she had more supportive parents.
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