I think I feel this way cuz I could never connect with Not A Girl not yet a wow man. It's just really a song that a male can't connect to. But yes I love hearing her live vocals so it really is one of her best performances if I were to be unbiased towards the song
It's not the videos fault she looked horrible. Her fashion, the pop culture and Britney references in it coupled with a fierce attitude make up for her dead eyes and being slightly bloated.