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Originally posted by Nemo
Why?
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Idk. I say I'm doing something for my birthday at midnight and my friends immediately think I'm gonna try suicide or self harm or w/e, I keep saying no, once the moment has passed they say I'm selfish for 'misleading them' (I said 20 times I wasn't like

), I have a whole rant about how they shouldn't associate me with suicide/self harm and now they're refusing to respond.
So then I feel bad, and immediately start thinking about all the bad stuff I've ever done and tbh I have done a lot. I don't know how I managed to **** everything up this badly but I have.
All I wanted to do was sit in the dark and do a prayer for forgiveness and now I couldn't even do that because I got 23 messages in 2 and a half minutes. And now I have no shot at redemption and am sitting here alone on my birthday dwelling on everything I've ever done wrong with no one to talk to.