Earlier today. It was my last cross-country meet and I was giving our team pre-race speech and I choked up trying to tell them that I loved them all.

Yesterday, because I was on my first date and I said something that my date took as pushing him away. I wanted my first date to be perfect, and I ruined it.

Then I started crying about a whole bunch of other things in my life.

like 2 days ago.
I miss my best friend so much