Highschool sucked for me. Freshman year, I became depressed as hell because I had no friends/was in the closet/undiagnosed aDD/social anxiety, was too anxious to make friends, etc. My grades struggled. Things got better second semester after getting on medication, my grades went up, I was more talkative, but still had no really close friends to hangout with. 10th year I became obsessed with my schoolwork because I had no social life so it's all I could focus on, I wanted it to be perfect, etc. Summer before 11th grade, I had a meltdown because I was so bored. Junior year, I self diagnosed myself with OCD and used it as an excuse to not do anything, plus I was still obsessed with school work + started to think I had to do all my work perfectly. Second half of junior year, I had a meltdown after switching medications I had been on for 2 years in a week. my mom took me to the mental hospital with no luck of being admitted. I missed 2 weeks of school because I would just scream and have panic attacks from withdrawal. After that, I would leave school and walk home everytime I felt ******. I was sick of being a perfectionist, and I felt like I had to be one or else bad things would happen to me. So I just gave up.
Then I got put on Abilify for the second time, and it saved my life. I started to take things day by day, could accept things as imperfect and my best effort, etc.
Then this summer I've gotten off Strattera, Abilify, and slowly weaned off Celexa, and went from 40-30mg of Celexa to 5mg now. I travelled to Virginia from Canada for a meditation retreat and made some awesome friends, despite being unable to talk to people my age at all 3 years prior. I went to Queer LGBTQ camp, again meeting awesome new people. Went to my cousins wedding, and danced all night and got wasted! Went to Maine for a vacation (beach every day

) and just came back. So things are pretty good I guess. Still don't have any emotions tho. I'm going to Alternative school for my senior year and am hoping to kick ass!