I'm 5'6" I'd rather be a little shorter than a lanky giant

I had to wear a thick jacket in the Texas summer because I was cold no matter what.
Are you better now?

Same. It was like 35 degrees and I had a jacket on. The looks I got
Yes and no. I'm not dangerously thin anymore, I've put on weight and am stable at 64kgs. Mentally tho...
You?

haha I know! I was still wearing a jacket a month or so ago when it was ~30'C and I got so many looks.

The mind is tricky for sure. What helped me stop worrying about the weight gain was taking a step back and appreciating what I have in life. Idk, it sounds stupid but I just think of how lucky I am that my body stuck through the hell I put it in and its just getting healthy again.
If you ever need to talk my inbox is open btw. We've probably gone through a lot of the same things.

My weight finally stabilized and I'd say I'm somewhere around 140lbs now. I still have negative thoughts about myself but they're far less traumatizing than before thankfully. I can brush them off now.

Now that my weight has stabilized, it's the mental anguish that's the hardest, it's torture. Plus the sudden need to exercise. If I don't burn it off, I donn't eat. It's like food has to be earned. It's so frustrating, especially when there's half of you that can see what you're doing is stupid and your way of thinking is irrational, but the other half that's compelling you to do it is just too strong. It’s incredibly tiring to be constantly fighting this, and unlike many other mental health disorders, there's no set medication that can combat your thoughts and behaviour.

Like you tho, I have come to appreciate my body a lot more, and myself as a person. I'm a lot stronger than I ever gave myself credit for, to be able to withstand everything I've been put through is quite remarkable.

It's so good you're doing better now. Hopefully continuing to improve a little everyday and thanks, likewise if you ever need to talk

In December last year I was fat, my waist was around 35 inches, and wanted to get down to a 33 or something so I started exercising a lot, and changing my meals slowly throughout the month, with them getting smaller, and smaller, and by the middle of January I was going all day from waking up at 7am without eating until around 8-9pm at night. I was still exercising a lot every day and by march my waist had gone down to a 28. I then started to feel ashamed with myself if I thought I had eaten too much in the meal, so I started to make myself sick
In April I started to eat more throughout the day like cereal and fruit and sometimes a sandwich etc and not been making myself sick in the night, I'm a size 30 waist now and decided to eat some ice cream yesterday, I thought id be fine with it so I are it but I got to a quarter into the dub and felt like id put all my weight back on, so I went downstairs into the kitchen and was sick Into the sink

Sometimes I think about throwing up after I've eaten

But I'm afraid to do it... because I think I would do it often, once I see how 'easy' it is

ya plz do not go there. ever.all it taes is one time and you can get hooed by the results. plz thereare better alternatives too loosing the weight you just gained by eating something greasy or calorie filled

Omg all you guys who struggled through this. You all have my fullest respect. Mustn't have been easy

I'm addicted to the weigh scale. It's 9:08pm right now. The last time I ate was yesterday at 7:00pm. I'm gonna eat probably tomorrow morning at 3:00am

not trying to be of topic, but does anyone still find demi lovato or kesha an inspiration, even though she doesn't always acknowledge us guys?

yes! The doctor told me that. I mean, If you don't eat obviously you are not going to grow up

Of course they are because before helping a gender they are helping a human being girl or boy so it dosnt matter but I would have appreciated it if they did mention boys too tbh

Aww here are the nice members of ATRL who wouldn't drag someone like Demi for talking about important issues like this. I hope things get better for everyone struggling and that you know that you are perfect no matter what, regardless of unrealistic, corrupt society

thanks for the sweet message.

I used to be bulimic, which was completely stupid cause I wasn't over weight at all. I just wanted to lose some belly fat, which I gained back almost instantly after I stopped puking. Now I just eat good & run, I look hella better than when I was purging.

besides having an eating disorder, has anyone ever had any other mental health disorder? for me, i have a form of high functioing autism.

this is so sad

I cannot miss a meal

i wish eating disorders in boys was more noticed.