I have to withdraw myself from the competition.
The advice you've given has been great, and I am appreciative.. but I feel like I'm focusing too much on making you guys happy when writing that I'm not actually writing what I want and what I feel makes myself happy. I guess I just don't like feeling rushed and I can't write at the top of my head, I need to experience life in order to be inspired and I find it hard to do that in such a short span.
I'm sorry for any problems, but I do thank you.