Yes.. Once with a girl first love. 2nd with a male who end up punching my face cuz i end my relationship with him, he's a jerk he felt sorry for that for 3 years and i forgave him after all.
And i think this one is the last... i deeply fell in love with this guy who treated me like nobody else, it lasted 11 months, 3 months in heaven.. 4 months heaven and hell and the rest we both lost... not sure he's gay or not but it's so ****ing hurt when he brought up the issue to the surface, like talking about a gf.. like seriously? i'm the ****ing one who knows you damn well and your delicate heart.
i lost me being with him cuz we both kept the feelings inside and never open up.. it's so uncomfortable for me.. i'm going to leave him.. i think this is my 100000th times planning to let him go... but i still coming back and forth just to end up in confusing again... ****ing love... i don't need it...
can't even cry now.. so much hatred towards myself and i know this isn't me.. the real me is loving, kind, happy, etc. But i feel the sense of losing who the real me.. because i let my mind to think of him 24/7 for 11 months.
the feeling is genuine tho.. not lust... that's why so hard to move on..
i wanna be ****ing free from this mess we made.... i can't.. and been saying this for thousand times.. i just can't... good****ingbye to the pain... bye...
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Originally posted by Victon
i just wanna be the real me... i am.. GAY.. awww... i am gay.. i am gay... i am gay... i am gay... i'm crying... i am GAY... **** them... **** it... **** everything about the so called perfect match must be with a girl... **** it.. i am gay i am gay...
i just wanna be the real me... i am.. GAY.. awww... i am gay.. i am gay... i am gay... i am gay... i'm crying... i am GAY... **** them... **** it... **** everything about the so called perfect match must be with a girl... **** it.. i am gay i am gay...
i just wanna be the real me... i am.. GAY.. awww... i am gay.. i am gay... i am gay... i am gay... i'm crying... i am GAY... **** them... **** it... **** everything about the so called perfect match must be with a girl... **** it.. i am gay i am gay...
well this my first totally come out.. thanks ATRL
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