Pretty much this.

How so?

Never! I'm invulnerable

Only to one person. People in general know I'm sad, but only one person knows why.

Yes. I'm a real open book which means that people are always there to support me but I've also been taken advantage of because of it.

I hide it with most people.

But, my true colors will show when you get to know me.

Sadly yes.

Thats exactly me.

I try to hide it as much as possible in school, through this whole façade of I don't care what anyone thinks of me. When I actually do.

my face like a mannequin



but in relationships/close friendships i usually show a vulnerable side or i would go crazy

Absolutely not. I keep it to myself and keep all such emotions locked up tight and put on a front like everything's okay. I know it's bad and maybe not even healthy to do, but I just can't help it. I've never really been one to talk about my feelings or anything, ever since I was a kid, so it's really hard to do so now, even though I have some really incredibly close friends who know my secrets. To me, letting someone know about your feelings is worse than them knowing your secrets

I feel like it makes me weak and attention seeking

I'm emotional person at first. I never tell my family how I feel.
But in general I think my acting is different when I'm sad or happy and many people see that. Every person who knows me, know that I'm in general happy, person who is always making jokes, constantly talking etc. And everytime I feel sad or worried, people always asking me what's happening? Are you okay? I always tell them I'm just fine. I really have many friends, but sometimes I feel uncomfortable to say how I feel to them. Even I have 3 best friends (two girls and one boy, which is strange in general to have girls for best friends because I'm straight and there's myth that men-women real friendships without love between each other exist). I can tell them secrets and my feelings, but I only one of them I can say every little and deepest feel in my heart and she always hug me, tell me something encouragement or something. It's amazing to have best friends and that's why they exist!

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First of all, I am blessed and I thank Allah for everything. I don't go through emotional rollercoaster as most people do, I am pretty emotionally stable because I don't attach my happiness and well-being to other people actions. But that doesn't mean that I don't get sad, I do have my bad days. After all, I am only human.

I do keep my emotions to myself and deal with them myself. I don't want to be a burden to others.

Never but I wish I wasn't like that sometimes.