Do you feel like your existence means something to the world? Do you wake up knowing what you want in life and where you want to go and what you want to do? Do you feel that you matter to people?
Personally I don't. Haven't for quite sometime now.
Sometimes I feel like I don't, sometimes I feel like I do. That reminds me of Addie in William Faulkner's book As I Lay Dying. The bitch became an elementary school teacher so that she could abuse her students and leave a personal mark in them, then she married this random lazy guy and had children with them and cheated on him and that was his favorite child and then afterwards she just started to live in a bubble of non-purposefulness and non-existence.
I am capable of great things, the question is am I really needed? Am I capable of attaining my full potential?
Not really and that's why I try to donate and volunteer so that I can feel like I'm actually contributing to the world instead of just sitting around doing nothing. Helping other people makes me feel like my life actually has meaning.
I've went out my way to help a lot of my friends and family. I don't think my purpose in life is to exactly help people, but I know I want to be a medial social worker/ anthropologist. Someone's I feel like I it's my duty to give people positive advise, because they're messing up.
I don't think about it anymore. Call me hedonistic, but if you have one life to live, why waste it overthinking things? I want to be happy, make other people happy and hopefully make the world a better place, that's all any of us can do
I don't think about it anymore. Call me hedonistic, but if you have one life to live, why waste it overthinking things? I want to be happy, make other people happy and hopefully make the world a better place, that's all any of us can do
Helping other people makes me feel like my life actually has meaning. 
